The Black Hole of Sports

The glory and fortune disappeared in the last decade. An onset of memory loss, hammering headaches, spelling problems, blurred vision, and hot temper led to spousal abuse, divorce, bankruptcy and finally, suicide in February at the age of 50. In the most eerie recognition yet by an ex-football player as to why he was losing his mind, Duerson presumably shot himself in the chest to preserve his head for research. He left behind the now-famous note, “Please, see that my brain is given to the NFL’s brain bank.”

That brain was sliced open by McKee, a co-director of Boston University’s Center for the Study of Traumatic Encephalopathy (CSTE). The “brown things” were nerve cells filled with tau protein, prevalent in degenerating brains like those in Alzheimer’s disease. There were so many brown spots, with tails curling off them, the slide looked like a muddy negative of spinning galaxies.

In that microscopic universe, we were looking into the black hole of contact sports: Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE). This was the hole likely blown into Duerson’s head in a career of at least 10 recognized concussions and countless subconcussive hits. This is the void we still let our gladiators and kids fall into, cheering them all the way.

“If it were a normal person, you would see absolutely none of that,” she said in her lab at the Bedford Veterans Administration Medical Center, where she also runs brain banks for research on military injuries, Alzheimer’s and heart disease. She pointed out how the tails of the tau-infested cells made long projections to make contact with other cells, causing short circuits and disordered thoughts.

“Totally chaos,” McKee said of the slide. “To imagine that a guy was 50 when he had this,” she said. “I deal with neurodegenerative disease all the time, but you don’t see it in 50 year olds even if you had a gene for the disease.”