The waiting is the hardest part

LOVE LETTERS

He says he wants to come home to her, but he won’t say when

June 18, 2011|By Meredith Goldstein, Globe Staff

Q. I met “John’’ a few years ago when we were working together. I’m definitely not one of those corny romantics who believe in love at first sight, but there was definitely something at first meeting that I’ve never had with anyone else.

We dated for a couple ofmonths, and it was fantastic. He took such good care of me, we had a great time, but we knew we were doomed to fail since he told me when we first met that he was moving to pursue a dream of opening up his business with a buddy. So he left, I was sad, we resumed texting-talking for a couple months and I just assumed it would fizzle out and it would take its natural course, and I would move on.

But I was wrong.

We’ve always kept in contact, and while I’ve had two relationships since he moved away, it doesn’t compare to what we had (which makes me feel completely nuts, I might add, since it was such a short time we were together, but I digress). Not a holiday would go by, even small ones like Labor Day, where he wouldn’t call me and see how I was doing. We would be in contact, even if we were seeing other people, at least once a week.

Recently, we’ve been talking every day. Every morning when I wake up, he wishes me a good morning, and we’ve been chatting on the phone every night. During our chats, he tells me how unhappy he is in his new city and how he wants to come home and be with his family and with me. He also says stuff like when he comes up here to visit, he wants to meet my family, wants me to meet his friends, etc. If I’m out with my friends, he checks in with me to make sure I’m being safe. And even though I’m sure he’s just trying to be cute, he says we’ll have kids and that they’ll play in the NBA (we’re both very, very tall). It’s gotten to the point — and again, I feel like a crazy person — that I don’t even want to go on dates because I’m waiting for someone who lives many states away.

But it’s not the first time he’s alluded to moving back here. He’s said it a few times, and then it never happens. And what’s really thrown me for a loop is that, as of the past couple of weeks, he’s been saying how he wants me to go down there. With my career, I can’t leave New England, at least not right now, and would not be willing to drop everything and move for a person I dated for just a couple of months. I should also mention that I’m in my 20s and he’s in his 30s, so in my opinion he should be thinking about settling down … so maybe he means it this time … but everyone is different so who knows.

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